I
might always wanted to look strong, though everyone close to me know how
fragile I could be.
I
might still wanted to display my smile , though there's a big hole in my broken
heart.
I
might wanted to sing happy song aloud, though there's tear I wipe when nobody's
looking at me.
I
might mourn over a particular event for months, wishing that I could mend
everything and things would be just fine.
I
might be stupid trying to endure all the pain as long as things get back to
normal, even though normal means series of betrayal, heartache, being used and
fights.
That
was THEN....
NOW,
I think I'm Okay..Far more okay than before, I think. At least, I'm happy
because...
- I didn't hear someone yelling some bad word to me anymore
- I didn't have to read my inbox and be hurt anymore
- I didn't have to do others people jobs, for the person to get the accreditation of my excellent jobs.
- I didn't have to spend a lot for others interest, which obviously not mine
- I didn't have to feel uncomfortable doing the things I don't want to do, or being at the place I don't want to be- pretending I enjoyed it.
- I didn't have to be more like you and less like me.
Now,
what I need is for you to disappear forever. I don't really bother anymore on
your update about your new happy life, or those pictures showing your wonderful
moments without me. Not anymore!
I
just need you to stop asking me for help, and be furious when I'm unable to do
so! Aren't that ridiculous?
"We
both don't owe each other anymore." Remember your own words?
