It’s been a while since I’m able to
translate my messy mind into the screen. I’ve been busy, trying to adapt with
new environment, which apparently away from my tradition. Escapism is what I
think when I made this decision. I want to runaway from my typical routine in
the same milieu that I have experience for the past 2 years. Then I
realize that it is just the same catastrophe with a modified approach. I
want to deny the possibility that I might have regret taking this decision. And
like I always do, I get lost in the middle, uncertain of what I should
do.
But this time, it is even worst. I’m lost
in the middle of giant seas. I only have a life jacket which keeps me floating.
There is an unknown sea creature trying to chase me and I am struggling so hard
to swim away from it, provided that I am NOT a good swimmer. And without
knowing, I finally have reached an isolated island and then I met several
people who obviously as lost as me. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know where
to go. To my surprise, my cell phone still working, and there is only one
person that come across my mind - my mom.
“ Mak, I’m lost. What should I do
now?”
Well, she might not have an exact answer,
but her faith in me, keep me going. If she thinks I can get through it, I
definitely can. And once again, I’m doing this for her. May it give me an ease
to prevail over this situation.
………...........……………………..end of my whining therapy session…………………......……………………….
Oh, by the way, I forgot to mention. I hate
being treated like a school student. I hate when people double standard me. I
hate being prejudged. And after all, I hate “you” who have applied all those
three principles towards me.
