It's 8 o'clock in the morning - another
helpless, pathetic day. I'm lying on the bed, staring at the spinning fan with
my mind full of emptiness. This dark room are just so silent, and I almost
could hear my heartbeat - weak and weary. I try to wake up and standing strong,
but my devastated sorrow have drained all my strength. I fall, even before I
get up.
For hours, I just lay down and surrender
with my torturing emotion. I feel numb. I could not feel the wetness of my
tears running down my face. I could only feel the pain, deep in my heart. I
could not take it anymore. I need to do something, but I barely know what should
I do.
Jumping from the window, maybe?
Maybe...........maybe...... maybe.....
I collected all the remaining strength to
get up and walking to the windows. I could hardly see what in front of me when
my messy hair covering my eyes. Every step is like bringing a heavy chain
on my feet -slow, torturing and painful. Though my hands are weak enough to
open the windows, but my heart urge me with every single beat. "Open it!
There's the only solution for your misery. C'mon! End it up, for God
sake!"
As I open the window, the first breeze
caress my face ,and somehow it is whispering a soothing sound to my ears. Birds
are chirping happily, flying under those trees up to the skies, freely. Though,
at many occasion, rain and cold climate are always my preferences, but at this
moment, the sun looks like smiling down to me, waving his warm rays and shout,
"Hey you! Yes, you! The girls with dark circle under your eyes and painful
bitter smile. Hold on to yourself, can't you? Just for a little while.
Everything's gonna be okay....Take my rays and keep it as your charm. At least,
you still have me, everyday, isn't it? And today, I bring my friend. Look
at those beautiful, colorful rainbow. Aren't she just too irresistible? She
will be here, every time after the rain, just to make sure the gloomy
cold rain doesn't take all your spirit away.."
I love rain. I never had a problem with
rainy days. But to see the rainbow in the morning after the rain, could be as
tempting as dancing under the rain too...:))
Besides, jumping from the window at ground
floor, wouldn't make any sense....
